Are you ever OVERLY CRITICAL with yourself?
Today I was taking pictures and it literally seemed to be taking me f o r e v e r ...
I was trying so hard to get the „perfect photo“...
And yet, the harder I tried, the WORSE the photos seemed to turn out.
„Ugh, your hair is so messy in this“
„That pose is way to stiff, it doesn’t look natural“
„The angle is unflattering, your body looks weird“
With every new attempt, the self-critical thoughts got louder.
With every new attempt, I got a tiny little more mad at myself for just not getting it right .....
Until I at one point, something within me shifted.
I stopped - and silently sat there for a few seconds..
shocked, when I realized what had just been going on with my mind there 🤯
„Woah, why did I just give these intrusive thoughts so much power over the way I see myself?“
„Why did I allow them to affect me in this way?“
You see, I think we all had experiences with our inner mean girl - that‘s what I like to call her 😆- before ...
It’s the part of us that feels deeply insecure about who we are... and CONSTANTLY tries to compare us to others.
The part of you that has you believe your value can be measured by things like your appearance, your skills, your grades, your level of income... (hint: it can‘t)
I quickly picked myself up and realized how irrational thoughts were;
and how all they did was WASTE MY TIME.
And so I went through those very first photos I had taken again...
but left the „mean girl attitude“ out of the equation, this time 🙅🏼♀️
Voilà, no more than 10 seconds later I made my decision 👀
I actually ended up choosing the 2nd (of approx. 30) pics I had taken....
(could’ve saved me at least half an hour of running back and forth between my camera & my chair 🌚🌚)
Anyways, done is better than „perfect“ guys! 💗
With love,
Patricia